Words worth writing.

It's been a minute

2009-03-26T11:37:00.001-07:00

since I posted last.Sorry about that.But I am currently in the process of dying.School is overwhelming.Work is overwhelming.Life is overwhelming.I was trying to wade it out for a while,but now I'm just sort of submerged in it all.However, I may be starting a new project with a photo friend? So that is exciting.I'm really looking forward to it, so I hope it works out.Also, I'll be starting

AMAZING.

2009-03-10T21:30:00.000-07:00

Particularly love the Obama reference.<3<3<3

Being all scholarly, and shit.

2009-03-09T17:12:00.001-07:00

So today, my modern American poetry prof ASKED ME TO ASSIST HIM WITH A BOOK HE IS WRITING.HOLY COW.MACKEREL.BANANAS.RANDOM WORDS.a;FHJASDKJGSdfadsfgjhadfgh!Future doctoral dream come true.He also said that after this project, he'd be willing to write one of my doctoral recommendation letters. WHICH IS A HUGE DEAL.And he flattered me with all sorts of scholarly compliments, about my observant

Too full

2009-03-09T12:19:00.001-07:00

And my drawers are too fullof loose laundry.Shirts I never wear,but can't bear to part with.Layers of others' outerwear,from men I haven't seen in years.But still, I fold them.Just like I'll fold you in with them,when this covering becomes too worn,and the holes no longer suit the standards of respectability,or my taste.But occasionally,when it's cold out,I'll slip you over my sleep skin.And

March

2009-03-09T12:15:00.000-07:00

This winter has been plenty cold,and long enough --the daffodils felt it when they began to bloomlast month.And along the path I walk to work,green grass forcing its way through the cracks in the bricks gives me hope.

Walden's Pond my ass.

2009-03-08T07:04:00.000-07:00

So I am back from the mountains.We camped two nights, and hiked a little bit.It was pretty, peaceful, serene, blahblahblah.And I am cranky as all get out.Whatever happened to nature soothing the weary soul, inspiring the tired mind, and nurturing creativity?Bullshit.Those transcendentalists were all wrong.My brain and abilities are just as muddled as they were before I left.But hey, I made it

A slump.

2009-03-04T16:00:00.000-08:00

I'm in one.: /Someone send me a writing prompt.I need some motifuckingvation.

These past few days...

2009-02-24T13:30:00.001-08:00

Have been amazing.It's good to be back with great friends, taking my head out of my recent literary world, and getting back out into the real one.Plus, Tabs and I will be getting a third roommate soon, so that should spice things up around 604 Frank. Annnnd the financial aspect of that situation is pretty promising.Intarwebs, soon! Also, I'm getting my lazy ass back into shape.Soccer last night,

SO GOOD.

2009-02-16T16:29:00.001-08:00

So I am pwning life right now.Not that I'm bragging, because that always precedes a fall (grammaw taught me proper, yo.)But I spent the whole day stressing out about this project I had to do for my rhet comp class, and post before hand, because it was confusing as hell, and I didn't think I was doing it right, and when the prof came in, he made a point of telling me before class that it was funny

New house:

2009-02-11T17:04:00.000-08:00

FTW.

Hibernation.

2009-02-01T19:53:00.000-08:00

It's time to hide in my books for a while.I'll be back when things are easier.

Re: re: faces

2009-02-01T15:37:00.001-08:00

Hell yeah I did that shit mirror image.

Valuable use of my time?

2009-01-29T16:05:00.000-08:00

I think so.What a happy sea creature. As Spence put it, " i think he's got downs."Thanks, photobooth.Oh, and can't forget the epic lunar ninja battle: <3

Infiltra(i)tor.

2009-01-29T08:00:00.000-08:00

I have discovered a spy in my headquarters.He was identified as a member of the enemy camp last night, and as such is certainly not welcome here.I'm sure he got the message.And now I hope his leader does...

My favorite seat in Caldwell...

2009-01-28T12:41:00.000-08:00

looks out over this sad, sad image: Yes, that is an incredibly dead, decayed bird. I don't know what this says about me, but I'm pretty sure it's fitting...

Oh, google, you.

2009-01-27T21:07:00.001-08:00

I love when you correct me.In an incredibly wrong, hilarious way.

Updike, RIP.

2009-01-27T10:43:00.000-08:00

This is a sad, sad day.We studied him in every, single creative writing workshop I ever took, ever. And I love him.Thanks, Updike.You'll be taught for many years to come. I am sure of it.And many more will come to love you, just as I do. <3

OH NATURE.

2009-01-25T18:32:00.000-08:00

Talk about watching where you are going...yuck.

Divine providence!

2009-01-21T07:29:00.001-08:00

So, instead of doing my homework yesterday...I PLAYED IN THE SNOW!IT WAS WORTH IT!However, now I am incredibly behind in my homework, and I was worrying and worrying about how this would all work out, when, upon checking my email this morning, it turns out MY POETRY PROF CANCELLED OUR CLASS!So I don't have to do his work until NEXT MONDAY!Which gives me so much more time for the rest of my

#44!!!

2009-01-20T09:08:00.000-08:00

What a beautiful, beautiful day.

OH YES.

2009-01-20T07:21:00.001-08:00

It's snow cream time!(And yes, that IS a can opener shaped like a toucan's head!) Delicious! :)

Annnnddd...

2009-01-19T21:19:00.001-08:00

the deal is sealed.New Bon Iver, you are mine!!And I waited until the actual release date... ;)Also, I am having entirely too much fun with this video chat thingy.AGHH I LOVE MY NEW COMPUTER! Now if only I could get some work done...Dang Bleak House.

Simply. can't. wait.

2009-01-19T09:57:00.000-08:00

1.20.09: New Bon Iver.Yes, please.Schoolkids run, anyone?

Thank you, Disney!

2009-01-15T15:25:00.000-08:00

So, I've decided on a topic for my final creative project in Victorian Lit, and it is the same topic that I want to continue to develop throughout my graduate career.It is the same topic that fascinated me in my high school literature classes.It is the same topic that had me swimming in the "sea" of my bedroom as a four year old little girl (that sea being a huge, blue blanket that I crawled

Red Races

2009-01-12T06:32:00.001-08:00

It was always such a big race.Rachel and I would take our places, one on each side of the dividing center aisle: back of the church, bodies just beneath the last pew, young tummies to the rough, red carpet. Not red like the blood of Christ. No, no. This carpet was Wolfpack red.Our pastor was a huge State fan.Toward the front of the church, the persistent sound of vacuuming traveled from one side

WHO WANTS TO BE A MILL-O-NAIRE!

2009-01-10T09:21:00.000-08:00

So, Slumdog Millionaire was AMAZINGAMAZINGAMAZING.Seriously.Go see it tonight.It was all I could do not to dance in the aisles.Thank you, MIA-heavy soundtrack.The character progression was well done overall, aside from a few inconsistencies and unneccesary emphasis on the part of one person in particular. However, the strength of the other personalities made up for it, so I forgive the movie for

Write? Right.

2009-01-09T20:59:00.000-08:00

I've been told that I should write... write something. Write anything. Write it out, write it right. Write? Right. Right something. Right everything,everything. Everything, write. Right something.Write.

I am posting this post...

2009-01-09T18:07:00.000-08:00

FROM MY NEW MACBOOK!!!!Holyholyholyholybalogney.This is beautiful.

Day one

2009-01-07T07:33:00.000-08:00

of Grad School.One class down (successfully) so far.Two more to go today, one more class tomorrow.And so far, so good.I'm liking this higher education thing. :)

Although I haven't been posting...

2008-12-24T18:45:00.000-08:00

I have been writing!I really actually love not having internet access at home. It saves me from wasting countless hours online, doing exactly what I've done here at my parents house tonight -- you know, wasting countless hours online.What I've done during these past hours, I couldn't tell you.I honestly don't know.But I've been sitting here, sort of surfing, through Facebook and twitter and blogs

A taste of what I've been working on.

2008-12-01T17:53:00.000-08:00

And the words just fell from my mouthlike a child spilling milk.

Every year is another milestone.

2008-11-26T17:05:00.000-08:00

And another memory. :/Tomorrow is the third anniversary of my (failed) engagment.So, one more year down, one more year behind us.Nothing but more years to remind us.Funny how that works.This week is always hard to get through.Like the holidays aren't hard enough.

Busybusybusy.

2008-11-18T07:17:00.000-08:00

So I am all over the place lately.But I'll be back soon.I just need to figure out some way to heat my drafty, FREEZING COLD apartment, and figure out how to make ends meet this month.But I'll probably just do a lot of reading and decorating instead.Sheesh.I'm a mess.haha.

NCSU Graduate School

2008-11-13T10:18:00.000-08:00

I GOT IN I GOT IN I GOT IN I GOT IN!!!!!!!!AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!Yessssssssss!I'm finally coming home.

Of course, I should really be packing,

2008-11-12T16:44:00.000-08:00

Instead, I'm being inspired. I've loved this poet for a long time, mostly because at some point I stumbled across her piece "Sorting Laundry" which can be found here (which you should really read) along with a few other of her works. She has a very quiet style, a peaceful sort of wisdom that I really can't relate to, but feel like I can certainly learn from.Enjoy.From Insomnia Cantatasby

Yet another reason I love Rilke.

2008-11-12T16:22:00.001-08:00

"for here there is no placethat does not see you."-- From Archaic Torso of Apollo

A fine frenzy

2008-11-12T12:33:00.000-08:00

So things have been very whirlwind for me the past few days, hence, the lack of blog entries.But OHSOSOON I will be back in Raleigh, and I am so incredibly ecstatic about it!!!Who cares if I have to have my entire apartment packed in two days?I got this.No problem.And on that note, I'm going to get back to it.

OMG ROBIN HOOD.

2008-11-06T08:30:00.000-08:00

So I love all the angry conservative rants I've been hearing about how Obama is going to steal from the rich and give to the poor.OH SHIT.OBAMA IS ROBIN HOOD.So does that make McCain the Sheriff of Nottingham, or Prince John?Because the mental image of McCain sucking his thumb and crying for his mommy while Palin slithers pathetically on the ground trying to cheer him up (Disney classic, come on

Carry On

2008-11-06T07:21:00.000-08:00

I've never met anyone who isn't carryingsome sort of baggage.A heavy heart,or heavy hands,as they travel.And it always amazes me,the things we do to the people we claim to love.

ROFLCOPTER. SRSLY.

2008-11-04T21:54:00.000-08:00

Sent at 11:51 PM on TuesdayBrian: i like all the "i'm moving to europe" messageson facebookumm, hucklebucks, europe is ACTUALLY socialistlike, real socialistnot made-up, obama socialistBrian: my mind is completely boggledour country is going to hell now bc of OBAMA?it takes a special person to think we're not already THERE

OH YES WE DID.

2008-11-04T20:59:00.000-08:00

I am finally proud to be an American again.This is EPIC.

Even the fall foliage has a hard time making this place worthwhile.

2008-11-04T09:14:00.000-08:00

So I went down to the river by my apartment for the first time just a few minutes ago.Just to get away, to think.To escape.Surprisingly, it was beautiful.I say surprisingly because it's one of the most notorious places in Greenville for drug busts and rapes and God knows what else.And yes, I was there alone.God, I'm such a bad ass.But today, in that moment, it was beautiful. There is no

Waiting room

2008-11-03T09:20:00.000-08:00

I want you to curse and begand burst into my bedroom,full of promisesand compromise.But ever true to your character,you can't even cross the parking lot,to tap timidly at my front door.And I've been waiting,but not anymore.

Here we go again.

2008-11-02T20:19:00.001-08:00

I should have figured out a long time ago that making choices with my heart never got me anywhere good.*Shrug.*And moving on...

For my roommate, who is going to be a mommy soon enough.

2008-11-01T20:57:00.000-07:00

And I am resentful of the handsthat clench into tiny fistsinside my belly,flailing at the insidesthat confine them.I'll hold those hands soonand gaze in aweat you, little creatureI've harbored.But oh how I wishyou'd stop struggling,just for tonight.

11.01.08

2008-11-01T20:26:00.000-07:00

It will never be aboutwhere I am orwho I'm with,but who I am not.

Some phrases I just can't get out of my head.

2008-10-14T13:25:00.000-07:00

Love isn't never straying.It's staying.Let love be sincere, or let it be.So I'll make my choices,and I'll carryno regrets --except for all of them.No one is complete if they've ever loved.

This grammar doesn't do me any good.

2008-10-09T16:36:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, I still try to put into wordswhat made you leave.Searching for a constructionthat leaves out me.But no matter how hard I try,I can't get the syntax straight.Because these adjectives --these penny words --no matter how good,aren't worth a god damn thing.Headstrong. Independent. Scared.Heartless. Broken. Found.Oh wait, that's a verb,And it isn't right anyhow.So I'm back to the kernel,the

To grandpa, on what was almost my wedding day.

2008-10-09T14:39:00.000-07:00

I only said yesbecause you were dyinga slow death,a death that left time for the planning.And more than anything --more than the flowersand the cakeand the white dressthat still hangs in my closet --the detail that really matteredwas the matter of you being present.

Persistence makes perfect.

2008-10-09T13:58:00.000-07:00

I was recently told that I needed to make my poetry accessible to more people than just, well, myself.So I'm working on getting most of my work up here ... eventually.With that in mind, I apologize for all the random posts of poetry, and the snippets of lines that are sure to come in the future. And then the edits and re-edits I'll be posting thereafter.Bear with me.And please, give me your

Metal heart, you're not worth a thing.

2008-10-06T14:11:00.000-07:00

It's always so much harder when there isn't anything tangibly wrong with the relationship. Because there is nothing to fight about, nothing to dwell on to keep one fueled and determined.There is just the stark and sad reality that two people were not right for one another.No matter how much they may have wanted to be.

More oldies.

2008-10-06T09:50:00.000-07:00

Warrenton, V.A.revised 11.14.06I spent all day reading road signs --green, like your eyes --and telling myself I didn't miss you.Not one bit.Exercises in moving onSpring 06ishThick smoke curls, youwhirl, and dance, and sing,and breathe deeply,breathe softly.Burn your fingertips,burn your throat and your lungs.Burn the pictures and the letters --but the moments are burnt into your memory.Now

A couple "classics"

2008-10-06T09:35:00.000-07:00

Parting is bittersweet, but this makes bitter obsolete.Spring 05ishSo simple in all its complexity,and I'm dreaming in shades of green.One is never enough,let's do it in sets of three --all eyes on us.Four bags and a blanketand our arms are loaded downBut I'm struggling with words,not luggage.And each visible gaspfor just the right ... everythingacts as a formidable barrier,between all the things

Fables never go out of style.

2008-10-03T21:59:00.000-07:00

So today in my ancient Greek class we translated one of Aesop's fables from the original Greek.I deciphered sentence structure, looked up a few words I didn't know, and muddled my way through a children's tale -- no biggie.But it's a little overwhelming when you think about what that actually means.I took a story that has been passed down from generation to generation for more generations than I

Coming home.

2008-10-02T15:02:00.001-07:00

It's been too long since I've written in this blog. It's been too long since I've written at all. And writing used to be my life.So it's time to come home.Lately my head has been a jumble of words and phrases and places and mistakes. Not a day goes by that I don't find myself frantically writing something down, be it 2 in the afternoon or 3 in the morning. I've got an ever-growing collection of

Quidditch?!?

2007-12-05T08:47:00.000-08:00

Now this is what I'm talking about.Why don't we have this at N.C. State yet?!lame.

beginnings.

2007-12-04T20:07:00.000-08:00

are always a good start. ;)